Lucky indeed

‘Cheers!’

She said to herself as she raised her coffee cup, aromatic and hot, filling the room with its powerful, over encompassing and highly satisfying smell which one could  literally taste.

She was happy with where she had brought her life. She had won! She had won her battle against all that negativity brought in by a broken down, rusting relationship.

She wanted to face her past just one last time, before she closed the door on it, finally.

They had drifted apart as she grew busy with her new job with so much to learn, high expectations of performance and her type A mindset.

He didn’t have much to do at work. The challenges were overcome slowly but steadily and then there was nothing more to prove, cause there were no more rungs to climb.

To keep himself busy and entertained he took to mentoring. Slowly as time went by, he found himself drowning in a sea of adulation and admiration. Much more than he had ever imagined. The women pawed him and ogled him from under their fluttering eyelashes. Pressed close to him, brushing their bodies, vying for attention. The men had admiration oozing out of their eyes, mouths, ears, everywhere, hanging on to every word, every syllable uttered. He was in ‘la la Land’. He couldn’t believe his luck.

That’s when he stopped. He stopped looking at her, his wife, where was the time? And in any case, she was hardly anything to look at. Neither was she utterly impressed with his every breath. He didn’t need her! Nah!

They drifted apart… Just two bodies in a silent home; each busy with their own routine. When she realized the void, the lack of human touch, human companionship, her partner for life had gone away, vanished. He was not interested in her, didn’t want her as his partner, definitely.

She wept! She cried! She broke down!

But was this what she wanted for herself?

Daily moping, sea of gloom? Cursing her luck, all alone? Nobody to talk to, nobody who cared how she felt, what she wanted to do or what she did not want to do?

‘No, this won’t do! I have to move on!’

“Whatever life brings me; I will accept it with grace!”

She recalled her advise to her colleague at work, who was going through a painful divorce. “If your husband finds you unattractive, if he is always belittling you because you are overweight, because you have grown old, then you are with the wrong partner!”

She too didn’t want a partner who didn’t value her for the person she was or cared little for her. Definitely this wasn’t the relationship which would see them holding each other’s hand and walk into the sunset singing a merry song, lustily.

She pondered long and pondered deep. The only choice she had to save her own self-esteem and dignity, to keep her head held high was to be her own life partner! Face all the odds, chin up!

 ‘Cheers!  To a new beginning!’

She felt good… lucky to be out of the hellhole!